Frozen.
Prickly shards of my shattered self-esteem pin me down, gagged by asphyxiating coils of self-doubt. Debilitating chills suspend me, frozen stiff.
I chisel out a brave face into my stone form. Refusing to submit to the cascading counter-productive feelings that keep pounding at my being, I barricade the doors.
Ego and pride hold me hostage as fear torments me. Afraid of losing the admiration of loved ones, I cannot reveal the haunting worthlessness that engulfs me.
I have to stand up and move beyond this, but I’m unable to let go, concerned that the slightest wave of motion will unleash a crushing flood of anguish.
I hope you find someone you can confide in. It’s not an easy fight. I wish you peace.